22.11.11

Today had college which is never too fun, had animation class first finished my animation i guess it is okay now, waited around for ages for the teacher for something -.- oh and had a mock english test, hmm, went to the garden at about 1ish then left the garden at about 3ish to meet for mcdonaldsss as the garden was finished anyway now thankgod :) learnt that there is nearlly 1 gram of salt in a large mcdonalds chips. drove around and listened to eminem for a bit :D Did really nothing at home.. hmm, probably should do something either productive or fun. and then in one hour it is my best friends birthday, and she will be 19 :) i also think it might be thanksgiving either today or tomorroww….

“I JUST WANNA BE FAMOUS
be careful what you wish for”

21.11.11

Today - woke up and my car was broken, bad times. Waited for a while to get my car fixed, finally got it fixed a few hours later, stupid car. Went out for lunch, was actually really nice, remember to have a BBQ chicken melt at cheshire taven again. Talked about future plans which really involves me not going to far in life…. .Friend a bit upset so help them out a little. Dads gone away, going to stay at his house a bit :) collected the key, he has pre-paid for a take-away for two. bought the movie horrible bosses, its actually really funny. Started to make an Eminem playlist and relised how much i love the song “Going through changes” so listen to that for a hour and now is 11.10 so i probably need to have a shower ect now.

- i dont do too much in a day so insted film everything i now think i just write down what i do everyday. -

Plan in life

  • quit college come December
  • get a job that i can work 3/4 days a week
  • maybe try and do something else productive
  • this time next year try and rent a house to be moving forward slightly
  • ….

hmmm.. looks like i am going to do well in life .. -.-

I’m going through changes
I’m going through changes

Lately I really, feel like I’m rolling for delph like Philly,
I feel like I’m losing control of myself, I sincerely,
Apologize if all that I sound like is I’m complaining,
But life keeps on complicating, an’ I’m debating,
On leaving this world, this evening, even my girls,
Can see I’m grievin’, I try and hide it,
But I can’t, why do I act like I’m all high and mighty,
When inside, I’m dying, I am finally realizing I need help.
I can’t do it by myself, too weak, 2 weeks I’ve been having ups and downs,
Going through peaks and valleys, dilly dallying,
Around with the idea, of ending the shit right here.
I’m hatin’ my reflection, I walk around the house tryin’ to fight mirrors,
I can’t stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?
I give a fuck, only thing I fear, is Hailie,
I’m afraid if I close my eyes I might see her,
Shit..

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